see you around

i try to talk to you
you don't even notice me
i thought we were friends?
i thought i could trust you.
but you don't even notice me.


i try to hang with you
you don't even talk to me
i thought we were the best of friends?
i thought you could trust me.
but you don't even talk to me.

i thought you weren't friends with them
but now you don't talk to me
how could i know
that you went over to the dark side?
how could i know
that they persuaded you to ditch me?


i try to steer you in the right direction
but you don't even listen
when i tell you
not to jump off the cliff
that is the idea of trust
of real friends.


i thought
that you could see
through my eyes
that you could empathize.
but now i see through your diguise
of the girl who cared
who understood.


you have changed
in my eyes at least
but its your decision
i can't change your will
so i'll see you around.

again

about you now

i know i screwed up

i know i broke your heart

i know it's my fault

but its tearing me apart

to know

that i'll never be with you again

that i'll never feel your touch

that i'll never hear you speak the words

"i love you"

again.

what's the point of my existance?

what's the reason that i'm alive?

what's the point of my existance

if i never see your eyes

up close like before

my heart is slammed to the floor

to know

that i'll never feel your touch

never hear you speak the words

"i love you"

again

i'll miss them

those wonderful words

as i do now

i'll never be with you again

you'll never be with me again

i'll never hear you speak those words

you'll never speak them to me.

i miss your touch

i miss your eyes

i miss your voice

i'll never forget you

i'll never forget your love.

you always stood up for me

you always picked me up when i was down

you made me smile when i never thought i would

you were the only one

who could make me laugh

without even thinking about it.

theres no point anymore

for me to be around

if you won't be there

making me laugh

making me happy

i don't understand

what i was thinking back then

i was so stupid to think

that it would make anything better

to push you away.

there's nothing i can do about what i did

so please just accept me

you know i accept you

if you did this to me i'd feel the same as you

but i wouldn't judge

i wouldn't hold a grudge

like you do.

i know i was wrong

don't worry about that

i know how i broke your heart

and i'll never go there again.

i want to love you again

i want to touch you again

i want to hear you speak the words

"i love you"

again.

No Getting Over You

You picked me up off the ground
You woke me up when I was sound
Asleep
You made me feel like a princess
You were my fairytale

But I was stupid,
I was rash.
I pushed you away
Thinking I would have a better day
But I was wrong

And because you
Picked me up off the ground
You woke me up when I was sound
Asleep
You made me feel like a princess
You were my fairytale
And now
There's just no getting over you
When I
Cry myself to sleep,
I wake up from a dream about you
Crying

You were my prince
It was a fairytale
You picked me up off the ground and
Woke me up when I was sound
Asleep
And now
There's just no getting over you.

Sunny side up

Confusion.

It's a difficult thing.

One or the other?

This or that?

Him or her?

Us or them?

He or she?

We or me?

How do I know what to choose?

Possibilities.

Sometimes helpful.

Angering at times,

sometimes good,

sometimes bad.

Should I fry my egg, or should I boil it?

Should I have scrambled eggs, or sunny side up?

Love.

It makes you happy,

it makes you sad.

It makes you angry,

it makes you glad.

The question is,

what do I want?

Love or no love?

You or him?

Choice.

There are many possibilities.

It can be confusing.

It sometimes has to do with love.

Maybe, you have to choose how to cook your eggs.

Me? I'll have my eggs sunny side up.

Whatever It Takes

I'm an addict
And you're my heroine
I'm an addict
And you're my only consolation
I'm an addict
And without you I go into overload

I can't get enough of you
You're my one true love
Because I'm an addict
And you are what I'm addicted to.

I can't stand the loneliness
The emptyness
The blankness
Emotionlessness
Sadness
I can't stand to be without you.

Your love
Your eyes
Your lips
Your laugh
Your smile
You are the reason I woke up every morning.

But without you
I lie alone for hours
I cry myself to sleep
I am no longer into my favorite sport
I don't listen in class
I don't listen to friends

Without you
I am just a shell of something once beautiful
Colorful
Thoughtful
Happy

I'm waiting for you
Whether I stay in limbo for days, months, years
I'm gonna wait for you
Whatever it takes

First entry

This first entry is basically just going to tell you what you'll be reading here. This is basically going to be like a journal for me... poems, letters, random stuff that happens to me, whatever. It's more for me than you... so I can look back on this stuff later, but you're welcome to read it and enjoy it, of course. I decided to do this today because I'm really just sitting around at home, doing nothing, because I'm sick. Anyways. Thats all for this first post. Seeya!