attempting to do the right thing

i wish i could make everyone happy
but before i can comfort those around me
i must be happy myself. 
nobody takes me seriously
everyone seems to believe
that i'm just being a crybaby
they don't understand
that there is absolutely, positively no end.

i try to do everything right
but it always ends up being wrong

the dilapidated ruins of some city burnt down by the romans

they're all just distractions
from the pain i'm really feeling inside
if someone could see into my mind
they would be unsatisfied.

my mind is like that one episode of spongebob. you all know what i'm talking about.
total chaos.
like the dilapidated ruins of some city burnt down by the romans.
everything is broken, and there's no way to fix it.

center of the hurricane

only a few really can tell
though they try to help,
i know there's no way to fix this mess.


pain surrounds me
love all around me,
and i am the center of the hurricane.


i wish it all could stop
wipe my tears with a mop
but you don't know how to help.


you see the pain in my eyes
see me sit there and cry
but you don't seem to even care.


every day, many hearts break
every day, one of them is mine
honey dear, it's obvious you don't empathize,
i'm the one with tears in my eyes.

never mind that i'm filled with anguish and hurt
never mind that i cry unexpectedly
never mind that i love him.

nobody

nobody seems to care
there's nobody anywhere
when i'm most in need
they're all filled with greed.

nobody talks to me
haven't got a text in weeks
i can't seem to find
what's really hurting inside.

everything hurts so much
but i don't act as such
i look fine on the outside
but inside, all i can do is cry.

crying at the tip of the hat
there's nothing to be angry at
i just hide in my room
hoping someone will find me.

the source of the pain
is yet to be identified
all i know now
is there's no way of getting out.

one summer's eve

i miss the way you looked at me.
who knows if i'll ever see it again?
maybe i'll get lucky
you'll realize what's going on in my heart
how i've felt since the start.

my feelings never changed
i'm sure yours have.
i've never seen you look at me
never snuck a peak
though i do every chance i get.

never thought i'd feel this way
be this girl
that one girl, the freak you used to date
i never thought i'd be "that" girl.


maybe one day
you'll see me again
look at me the way you did
on that one summer's eve.

valentines day

valentines day.
tis simply a gathering of stuck up snobs
rubbing their happiness in the faces of the less fortunate.

snogging in the halls
there are no recalls
for those moments i lost.


never regret something that made you smile.
i could never regret it
though now i think it is what signed my death certificate.

a ruse

you came so close
to ending my life
hypothetically, that is
never thought i'd make it through
thankfully, it was all a ruse.

so I haven't been on here in a while. I'm posting from my iPod so excuse any typing errors.

so I haven't been on here in a while. I'm posting from my iPod so
excuse any typing errors.

My feelings will never change
But if only you would just give me a chance
I may just change my mind when the moment arrives
When Mr. Opportunity knocks at my door.

I've had Mr. Opportunity at your door for as long as i can remember.
But you don't seem to take the initiative
You've never realized how I feel.

Sent from my iPod